God sayes to play nice!

Ok so you have something going on and it tear you up.....like my situation....God gave me Jer. 31:15-17 Very poignant...and very true of myself...I think Ok God so you are definately compassionant about how I feel....But I still struggle with this anger...I need to let it go but it sits there. Like a lump on the log at the bottom of the sea....

So God then sets me in Romans to 12:14 Bless them which persecute you:bless and curse not.
Then God directs me to Romans 12:17 Recompense to no man evil for evil,Povide things honest in the sight of all men.


Ouch...ok..so I have to ask forgiveness because yes I have been guilty of wanting to curse the situation. And so in tears I pray for the situation and all involved for hearts to be healed all the way around...and for all of us to learn from God and have our hearts softened to the spirits call. God is trying to tell all of us something...we all need to learn it....I was looking at legal options before all this. Now I guess I need to leave things where they are. Because realistically...what can any man judge do that God can't do better of more efficiantly? I need to just let God.

Salvation at its best

It was a late and fantastic night last night...got to play family games even though my husband dear had to get up extra early, he's a logger. And after all our festivities it was time to put the children to bed. Of course my daughter is scared of the dark at 8 years old. But this time I chose to use that to my advantage and utilized her "loneliness" feeling of the dark to witness to my daughter. We had a great time together and she did get saved prayed all by herself to the Lord. I was so proud of her...and then she turned to me and said "Mommy we have to tell Patrick, and Steven and Nathan how to be saved." When I informed her that they were she was relieved. But then she asked about all the people in the world. And I told her that I did not know about them. Her genuine loving response was "But mommy we are running out of time...we have to tell everybody! No one should have to spend eternity in hell." Out of the mouthes of babes....Our God is an awesome God! Who have you told today??? If no one make a point to share with someone.....anyone...after all do they "deserve" to be in hell.....absolutely not.

My Poem

The heaviness of my heart
weighs down my soul....
it brings me to my knees
raw thru the shedding of tears...
There I place my heart and
fears, into the hands of God...
Ever seeking peace and quiet
that's displaced by spirits strife...
How can my human form bare
such heavy life....
I cannot...thru myself I
am of naught...but pained, and distraught...
My eyes are sore of pained
tears that stream...they fall
from eyes to heart, and there they
stay.....I seek relief before
my heart is drowned...
I wait on God who's glory
crown shines bright the hope
around...
Thru prayer and faith and trust
I seek...please make me meek...
my heart is humbled ever so...
for I am weak....
this I know.......

Many Lessons In Many Days

I have been trying to get to this for a while now...but God has had me busy....very busy!! I am presently going thru a very trying time in dealing with people who have been deceptive and hurtful. And it wouldn't be so bad really except it then embroiled some members of my family who thru thier youth and inexperiance with this sort of thing believed what had been told them. So the result for me has been a very grieved heart....heavily filled with my tears and lamenting.

But God has heard me....I would like to share the verses He has shared with me...first was Is 7:4-7 This was Gods answer to me that He was not going to allow the thing that went on to continue. Then came verse Prov. 21:22 this was God telling me to wait...that he will save me. Another verse was Jeremiah 1:19 all I can say is God is amazing!! I am purposely not writting out the verses....you need to look them up as you go along on this journey with me....you will be excited and amazed by God's word!! All of these verses came on one day...so....the very next day of tears and anguish brought this:

Ps. 3 , Ps. 4, Ps. 5 and Ps. 6 in verses 6-10 is the very thing I was doing as I was reading these passages. I spent hours on my dock on the pond crying out to the Lord and telling him my griefs...He heard me...and he answered me. I asked him as the stupid human that I am to please give me a sign that he was there. And the next morning on my way to work on the driveway was....a Quail...your thinking...yeah and??? Well what did God give Moses and the people in the wilderness for substanance? Quail and manna from heaven. I took this to be God letting me know He is there and He did hear my lamenting and my tears..He is Providing for me as He did his people in the wilderness......and might I say I do live in the middle of a forest....lolol He also on this day gave me the verses Joel 2:12-13a very powerful.....

On the next day....I was grieving in quiet at work...and wrote a poem which I will post seperately...for you all to read. But the verse he gave me after I wrote that poem is awesome: Ps 31: 10-18: 21, 24 and so for now I leave you with several days of lessons God has taught me. What have I learned: God is there...He is real and when you seek Him you will indeed find Him. I am soooo excited to see what he will reveal to me next...He has brought me peace of heart and mind for I know that He will clean up that ugliness that has brought such grief into my life...He will feed me...and protect me...because He loves me...and I love Him.